Have u done something bad and later regretted it, felt guilty and wished it never happened and wanted a way to undo it...??
I would like to mention about this little incident that occurred today afternoon that made me realize how harsh life can be and how helpless it can render someone...
Well i was at home reading/orkuting/browsing(which some would also refer as wasting time) and doing the usual stuff when the doorbell rang...I opened it to find an old man standing with incense stick packets (agarbattis) in his hand...He was tall ,thin, had white beard and was wearing dark glasses...By the looks of it,he was almost 60+...was carrying a plastic bag full of agarbatti packets on his right shoulder and i could bet that the bag was heavier than him...he was all sweaty and tired..
I thought he was a regular salesman bugging in the middle of a afternoon and was about to close the door as i usually do...But then he spoke in perfect english...He was pleading and i could sense the pain in his voice...He said his son had a brain tumor and this wasn't his regular job...He wanted the money for the operation...My heart wanted to believe him, but my mind kept saying no for some reason...He became paranoid and i could feel his urgency...he became desperate and requested me to buy at least one of them...My intellect overruled my conscience....I just told him i was sorry and closed the door...He went back all deceived and dejected..
My conscience kept pricking me that i had done something wrong...It made me feel guilty...I could have spend a mere 20 bucks and bought at least one packet which would have made him happy,helped his son in some way and didn't make me feel like shit...I m not religious but i certainly believe in karma...There are no good men or bad men...Its the deeds that have goodness or badness in them...It is what we do or refuse to do that link us to good and evil...and what i had done was a bad deed or karma on my part...
Gaurav
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4 comments:
And u were guilty enough that u ran down nd did try to find him atleast in search fr 10 mins if im nt wrong!!
Yea karma..its true...d deeds are wht differentiates gud frm bad!!
N of wht i kno abt dis u regrettin it in d end n tryin to correct it clears away al d bad n d gud remains!!
ya..gone thru bin der..n nw hv decided not 2 let my intellect (or shud i say lack of it) interfer
wel.. d mere fact dat u acceptd d wrong doin.. brushes away d bad on ur part... n DATS wat karmas al abt...not wat u do.. but how u accept it as...
ya i was also the same no brainer .
But i started believing in the karma after experimenting with life.
Too get the guilt go away yoou should make a list of things u did bad like earl and try to mend them.
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